December 11, 2017

This weekend was fun – I went to see Sasha with Cameron, James, David, and a few other people. It was packed and annoying, I really just like being at home or in a quieter place. We tried to meet her but the line was set up in a terrible way, and people kept cutting so eventually we just left.

Saturday we went to the gym and then to Portland for the Christmas party. It was stressful, just being around my family. I’m not sure why it stresses me out so much, but it does. Cameron could tell, and apparently he gets upset that I don’t ask how he’s doing after I have one of my stressful moments because it impacts him, too. Which is fair, but I also tell him when I’m upset, I’m not a mind reader.

Last week I sent both Blake and Tyler a “Happy holidays, hope all is well” text message. Tyler said, “Thanks you too” and Blake said nothing. I’m really irritated by his lack of response. Like super annoyed. Whatever, though.


December 2, 2017

I’m sitting at Cultivate with Cameron and I have to say I’m finally having the chance to actually relax. Neither one of us are sick, we have both have relaxing days – both last night and today. It’s nice to enjoy a beer and type up random crap for a blog.

We went downtown last night and it was pretty busy because of Tag Days. It was really cute, just really crowded. We went to Vault of Midnight to see the tree lighting – it was underwhelming. We were going to go to Bar for some food, but it was packed. We ended up going home and hanging out.

We were sitting in the living room and I wanted to show him the song “Perfect” by Ed Sheeran featuring Beyonce. We slow danced to it, and afterward I told him I loved him. I’ve accepted it over the past few days, but decided to tell him. It’s funny how big of a deal I made it in my head compared to previously – I hadn’t waited long with Tyler or with Blake. This time I wanted to make sure.

I’m not sure what this evening has in store, but hopefully it will be fun.

November 29, 2017

This week is so interesting. It has been so much more chill than the rest of November except for today.

Last night at the meeting there was a tiff between two members. One called for the removal of the other and nothing happened – which is good because procedurally you cannot do that. I feel like such a bad advisor because I do not know all of these things yet. Anyhow, that tiff carried over to today. The one that was not following protocol and was asked to be removed texted the other with language that came off as threatening and eventually the police were contacted. It’s difficult trying to manage that because you have to support both students which is difficult.

Another thorn in my side is this stupid guy that thinks we owe him his flight cost because he missed it. No, honey, we do not. Plan better. Curious to see what my boss says.

Matt Lauer was kicked off the Today Show which is so weird to me because I grew up with him on television. Men need to stop taking advantage of their power and not be gross. POTUS also chimed in about it and I’m like – seriously guy?! You are on tape talking about assaulting women. Gross.

I cannot believe this year is almost over. 2017 flew by.

November 25, 2017

Thanksgiving break has been pretty relaxing so far. I went out for drinks with Cameron, David, and James on Wednesday. Since then I’ve been sick.. lol.

Thursday was nice. We went and spent some time with my family, and then traveled across the state to hang out with Cameron’s. I was feeling pretty rough by the end of the evening.

Friday I literally spent in bed, the entire time. We got back to Ann Arbor, watched some weird gay movie about drag queens called Cherry Pop. It wasn’t bad but it wasn’t good.

I’m feeling better today! We are currently at Cultivate and Anna is coming to hang out soon. 🙂

November 20, 2017

I sit here laying on the couch with Ellie napping softly. She is such a little ham, I cannot believe I considered getting rid of her. I mean, I can.. I was overwhelmed at the time.

This entire month has been an absolute shit show at work.

The big vote came up and surprisingly the students passed it by secret ballot, and then the president reluctantly signed it (or will be). It was the longest meeting ever – it went until 3am. Disgusting.

Elections were 6 days later and there were a plethora of problems to deal with regarding that as well. Lots of last minute scrambling because both me and the Election Director have no idea what we are doing. They went live today and I found out one school was shorted by the registrar by 4000 people. We got it fixed and I had a back-up plan because of a loop-hole, but good gravy.

The bus thing starts tomorrow and I hadn’t heard any confirmation from the students so I sent an email last night at 11:30 p.m. and then had to go to the airport this morning to get the permits and what not. OVER IT.

Thank Jesus that the break is almost here because I’m headed straight towards a nervous breakdown. lol

November 9, 2017

Goodness. This week has been so extra.

Started the week by finding out that the super politically charged item was going to be on the agenda. Add to that a member of the org said some dumb shit around not having enough folks with privileged identities in the org. The group decided to create a committee to look into it further.

Elections are in a few weeks.

The bus thing is in a few weeks.

Cameron said “I love you.”

On the toilet.

He said “I love you” for the first time to someone.

While drunk on the toilet.

I don’t know if I do yet. If I can.

It’s bringing up bad thoughts in my head. Making me reflect on my pass relationships. I don’t know where I’m at. I don’t want to say there is pressure, but of course there is.

Denver was fun but not. It was dirty. Lots of homeless people. Cameron got so paranoid when we tried the edibles. I just couldn’t stop laughing. It was fun hiking in Boulder, though.

Ellie is one year old today! Yay!

November 1, 2017

Holy cow! I have not written in a long time. I feel like everything is going by so fast and I haven’t had a chance to sit down yet and think about what is happening in my life. I’m going to try to take pause.

Things are ramping up with the issue within CSG. The pres and VP are on opposing sides but it will likely pass, apparently. Not that the passing of such a measure will have any impact, but regardless.. it impacts the relationships of students within the organization. I’m grappling with how to support students that have a high sense of significance.

Halloween was fun! I had people over and everyone seemed to have a good time – some had too good of a time (Cameron and Sam). lol. Cam threw up on the way to the club, and Sam did the same upon arriving home. Cameron greeted Sam and Chris in his jock which I thought was hilarious, and we almost did group stuff.

OH! Also. Cameron said “I love you” while sitting on the toilet. He was drunk, but I was like.. eeek. I think I’m getting close with him, but I also recognize I’m still a little hung up on Tyler. Plus I’m not that great of a boyfriend.

I’ve been feeling like crud since Halloween, though. I’m not sure if my immune system is just down or what.

October 19, 2017

I have been learning hiragana to occupy some of my free time. I’ve also tried moving away from IG & Snapchat, just because I tend to spend a lot of time there for no reason. I wish I had self control to do it for like 5 minutes a day and that’s it, but I do not currently. This page leads to that page which leads to this page.. it’s never ending.

At work I should have probably volunteered for an event today, but I had a few other meetings and things on my calendar. Oh well.

Cameron and I are going to Denver the first weekend in November! I’m excited! It should be delightful and relaxing (hopefully). We still have not landed on whether or not we are renting a car, but we can figure that out later. 🙂

I think that life is funny and dumb. I want to get paid. Now.

October 16, 2017

I spent the weekend at Cameron’s. It was pretty chill. Friday night we didn’t do a whole lot – traffic was awful on the way there. Saturday we went to the gym, played video games, had his friends over and played board games. Sunday we didn’t do a whole lot – Kris and Zach came over at some point and we played games for a second, too. After that we went to see Kesha at the Fillmore. It was pretty cool 🙂

The concert was so fun and relaxing – it was so cute holding Cameron’s hand and kissing and grooving to the jams. xD


October 8, 2017

I didn’t do a whole lot this weekend which was nice.

Cameron and I went to Necto on Friday to see Trixie. We spent two hours in line to be up front and got some solid pictures.. well Cameron did. I got a video.

Saturday we didn’t do a whole lot. Breakfast with Anna, pokemon/smash, and gym. We tried to have cute boys over on Saturday but it didn’t pan out unfortunately. We had Matt and Steve over, though. It was fun and chill.

Today I didn’t do much. I went to Zach’s play, the gym, the gym again, and that’s about it. 🙂