I finished cleaning out the apartment yesterday, and I am dropping off the keys. I know I had already broken down about it, but actually closing that chapter on my life is weird.
I tried calling Blake to ask if he wanted certain things but he didn’t answer. He never texted me back either. I’m just kind of over it.
I unblocked Tyler on Insta today to see if he was miserable, but he’s not. Not that I truly want him to be, I just want him to realize how good he had it. Maybe, though, he didn’t. Breaking up creates so much self-doubt and I seriously question why people want to be with me. I understand that I’m cute, but that will fade and then nobody will want me.
I’m going to Saugatuck this weekend with Jordan, spending money that I don’t have. I know it is dumb. But whatever. Life is short. He’s going back to NYC soon, and I want to make sure I get to enjoy my time with him.
Things are going well with Cameron so far. I don’t want to jump the gun or anything, but I can see it turning into a relationship. Famous last words, right?
I have had the most excellent of weeks. I am so incredibly fortunate to have friends that love me, a cute boy that likes me, and a dog and cat that provide constant cuddles.
Thursday we went to Bill’s Beer Garden and enjoyed a few beverages. Jordan brought me the CUTEST freaking gift ever – a Pokemon mat that says Home Sweet Home. Anna had flowers delivered to me. James and Kevin got me a drink guide. Cam got me tickets to see the Drag Queens. Zach and Kris got me a Chili’s gift card. Matt got me.. nothing. lol.
Friday we went out but Cam and Anna wanted to leave early, so we did.
Saturday we (all minus Matt) went to the zoo. It was a beautiful day. Then James, Kevin, Anna, and Jordan came over and we played games all night. It was superb.
Sunday I just hung out with Cam. We moved more stuff from my old place, went to Tropical Smoothie, and went to the gym. It was nice.
I had to drop Ellie off today to get fixed. I almost teared up 😦
Tomorrow I turn 28, and I’m excited. Excited to leave this year in the past, but not to forget it and all that it has taught me. Breakups, heartbreaks, new friends, new job responsibilities. It’s been stressful, but I’m adjusting.
Lots of folks have come into my life, and quite a few have left it. If you believe in fate, each of those has a reason. Some folks are just crazy, sometimes I’m the crazy one. It’s okay as long as you recognize it.
I have been working at Pierpont for the week learning how to manage a building 🙂
Bill’s beer garden tomorrow / Necto Friday / Zoo on Saturday. It’s nice having friends.
I feel like I keep starting my blogs with “this was fun.” That’s a nice change of pace, right? Things aren’t terrible right now, they are pretty splendid.
Friday, I spent the evening with Jordan. We played a lot of Super Smash, went to dinner at a Chinese place, and then to Necto. It was chill. He’s a really awesome guy.
Saturday, I went to pride with Jordan, Zach, Kris, and Matt. We were there from 12:30 to around 8:30. It was pretty tiring but fun. Who doesn’t like drinking and spending time outside watching performances? I met Cameron and he gave us neat tattoos. I spent the majority of the time with Cam and Jordan, and it was pretty fun. We went to St. Andrews after and I think that was probably a mistake. I was tired.
When I drove Jordan back we sat and chatted for a bit. He told me how uncomfortable he was having to spend the day with Cameron, and basically being ignored. I’m kind of an awful person, but I was under the impression that we were just going to try the fwb things. I mean, he leaves at the end of the summer. If he didn’t, I would be incredibly interested.
Sunday I slept until 11, played Super Smash all day, and then went to Ferndale to meet up with Cam. We did dinner at One Eye’d Betty’s and then went to see Wonder Woman. The theater was actually pretty neat. It had reclining chairs so we got to cuddle a bit. He drove me back and then we kissed for a little bit. I left.
On the way home I was so nervous I was going to run out of gas. I could have stopped, sure, but I didn’t. lol
I don’t want to work this week.
This weekend was fun.
I went to Brooklyn’s dance recital on Saturday and got to spend time with my parents, Grant & Nicole, and Audra. Brooklyn was pretty cute in her one dance, but I was bummed that it was one of twenty-two dances.. lol. We went to Grant’s work afterward and had lunch.
I drove to pride in Ferndale after to meet Zach and Matt. We had lots of fun.
Sunday I went to the gym, went to Lowe’s with Anna’s, helped Anna move some of her furniture, went to David’s to check out the place and talk about paints, then we rushed back to meet Zach. Zach and I went to Gallup to walk Ellie, then to Kroger to get dinner. After that I went to meet Jordan at Raven’s club. He’s pretty cute and nice, but moving back to NYC soon.