October 30, 2016

This weekend has been chill. I didn’t drink a whole lot at necto on Friday, but I felt a little uncomfortable in my Ursula costume. I went with Matt, which was quite nice. I think he is a good influence on me. He doesn’t drink or smoke or anything, he takes risks, he’s funny. He makes me feel at ease in a crowd which is nice. I just don’t know that I’m what he needs or wants.

Blake was there with his new guy. It was kind of awkward. It’s kind of weird that someone that is such an integral part of your life can just live separately from you, and eventually you become two very different people. I know that it is true and possible, I mean look at Anna in Oklahoma.

Saturday I didn’t do a whole lot. I did my laundry, and that’s about it. I went to Dark Horse brewery with my family, which was nice. I need to visit them more.

Today I ran two miles again. I need to get back on my goals. I need to finish that Harry Potter book, and maybe do some math problems or something.


October 26, 2016

I went over my budget by $1000 this month. That’s not okay. No more eating out. I know I say this to myself all the time, but seriously. It just isn’t responsible.

I’m sitting here drinking wine, eating skittles. I’m an adult. What. hah.

Rose: I was able to successfully put eye shadow on today. Boom.
Thorn: Work. Lol. I just don’t want to go. I want to sleep all weekend.
Bud: I’m looking forward to Friday and showing off my Ursula costume. 😀

October 24, 2016

This weekend I went to ACUI. I have gone to so many of those conferences it gets a bit boring, unfortunately. The content isn’t great. I’m not sure if I was sick or what, but I accidentally slept through the majority of the conference. It was fun to go out a few times with coworkers, though.

Last night I just hung out with Matt. I really enjoy his company. We watched The Conjuring and then cuddled. Then he insisted we go get Dom’s donuts and McDonald’s so I obliged. I’ve had fast food twice over today and yesterday. Gross.

Speaking of breaking resolutions, I only ran a mile today. I really didn’t want to get as sweaty as I normally do during the two mile run. I did do shoulders and arms, though. So I suppose that makes up for some burning calories.

I really don’t want to go to work tomorrow, but I think I have to. 😦 lol

October 19, 2016

I had a breakdown last night. If you’re guessing because of Tyler, you’d be right. I knew that things weren’t going to work out, that we wouldn’t be together but in the back of my mind, I guess I had still hoped that it would.

I read for the first time in a while last night, Harry Potter and the Cursed Child. It is pretty good, and a quick read. I miss reading, sometimes.

I have just been struggling with the meaning of life, what is the point of it all? To collect as many resources as possible? To create a routine and stick to it? To learn as much information as possible? To travel the world? Why? We will only forget the information, we can’t take things with us, and what’s the point of traveling? Seeing new places? Okay, great.

I’m just struggling I guess. The meaning of life is foggy and I don’t get it.

October 17, 2016

I’m not sure how I feel about this trip to Seattle. On one hand, I fit perfectly back together with Tyler. I’m not sure that goes away when you are in love, even if he thought it did (he’s young). Seattle just didn’t feel like home to me, but will any place right away? I need to find my regular spots and what not. I also really enjoy my job currently, so it’s hard to walk away from that.

So, what do I do? I stay. I live my life. Maybe we will cross paths. Maybe I will get a job offer out there, maybe I won’t. I just know that I’m going to stop chasing people. I deserve to be chased. I’m a catch, I’m great, I’m cute.

I had to laugh because Taylor Swift’s song about December played as he was driving me to the airport. I love him, I really do. I’ll be okay, I have been.

October 12, 2016

Life has been great lately. I have hung out with this cute guy named Matt twice now, and we’ve been chatting regularly since we spent time together. He’s adorable, but only twenty-two. I kissed Sulley yesterday, too. ALL THE KISSES.

I started taking maca root to help my sex drive, and I hope that it works.

Also, I’ve been trying to eat healthier as one of my resolutions and I’ve been doing a decent job. I had McDonald’s today and had to throw it out because it didn’t taste the greatest.

I go to Seattle tomorrow and I’m not even that excited for it. I think I’m starting to mirror Tyler’s feelings towards it, and I’m not going to be overly excited if he isn’t..

October 10, 2016

Two more months and I will have been blogging for a year. Strange, right? My Twitter presence is doing okay. I mean, I live tweeted some of the debate yesterday.

This weekend was chill. I went to ComCo’s show on Friday and I saw John from my first year in UAC. It was nice seeing him. They were funny but violated some fire codes, so I’ll have to advise them away from that.. lol.

Saturday I went home to visit my family. We didn’t do a whole lot, but we had dinner and hung out which was fun. We went to look for the zebras, but they weren’t at the farm on culter road anymore.

Sunday I headed back to Ann Arbor and just did some cleaning and what not.

I have successfully ran/walked 2 miles every day (except Wednesday). I’m pretty proud of myself. Keeping up with the trend this week.

Trying to figure out what my SMART goal for the week should be. Maybe I could read a book, or clean my car, or run a 7 minute mile.

October 7, 2016

I have met my goal of running/walking two miles every day except Wednesday. I’m curious what the weekend will look like because I probably won’t want to do it, but I need to.

On Thursday I watched the unveiling of the university’s plan for diversity, equity, and inclusion. It just seems so disingenuous and so it’s hard to throw your weight behind it, even though the work is worthwhile.

Today I had a good chat with AB. I totally have a crush on Mark, but I can’t act on it or flirt or anything which is tough. He’s just cute and a good guy, but I’m not his type probably.

Eric told me today that he can’t just talk to me without being invested, so I need to figure out my life before we continue talking. That’s fair, I guess. Being single sucks in that folks have an expectation that you will want to pursue a relationship with them. I might not, at all.

October 4, 2016

Today was decent. I had a really hard time falling asleep last night. I got this crazy idea in my head to fly to Seattle and to see if Tyler would be willing to work things out after seeing me in person.

This morning I did just that. Crazy. Hopefully it comes off as romantic. If it doesn’t go well, I could use a vacation and to see Robert/Pine/Joe.

I also ordered the Google Pixel today which is pretty exciting.

Karla, Allie, Tynishia and I went to the Gandy Dancer today. I was not a huge fan. The service was terrible, and the food was mediocre.

October 3, 2016

My apartment is currently shaking from bass. Dafuq? I’ve complained once already, but it is what it is. Only 8 more months of living here 🙂 Hopefully, maybe, I’ll qualify to buy a house. If that’s a goal of mine, which I’m not sure that it is.

In terms of the goals I set yesterday, I only bought a fountain drink (tea) from Subway. I’ll probably use the same cup tomorrow to save the money. Also, I ran/walked 2 miles today. I think I will have to wake up early tomorrow to reach that goal. I think if I can successfully make these changes then I can tackle new goals each week. I was thinking perhaps I could dedicate time each night towards Spanish as well. We’ll see. One goal at a time.

In relationship news Tyler told me it has been too long since we broke up to pursue anything at this time. I’m okay with it. Last night I cried a bit because it seemed that both of the men in my life didn’t want me; Blake cheated, Tyler left. With that being said, things happen for a reason. Whether you strictly believe in fate, or believe in God and their plan, you can take solace in knowing that the universe is working shit out.