March 31, 2016

I think the relationship with Tyler may be coming to a close. Apparently he has been debating whether or not he wants to move to Seattle, and hasn’t even brought this up.

It all came to a head because he indicated he doesn’t want to see Connor when we visit Toronto this weekend. I understand his reasoning, but I feel bad because we haven’t seen Cawns in quite some time. It isn’t like we are hooking up with him, but we have in the past so I get it.

I’m not sure what I’ll do if this chapter of my life comes to an end. I still have a great support system, but Tyler has been an incredibly large part of that for the past year and a half.



March 28, 2016

What a busy week, and the semester is only going to get more hectic!

Last week I had the opportunity to meet the creator of Humans of New York. I got to dine with him at Sava’s, and meet his fiance. He was a pretty nice guy, but you could definitely tell that his brand’s fame had gotten to his head a little bit. That’s alright, though. The students at the event seemed to really like him, and that’s all that matters in the end.

I spent time with my family on Saturday. My dad was drinking a little, and then he grabbed my wrist pretty hard.. to the point of hurting. I think he was just trying to assert his dominance and prove that he was strong, but that’s basically just abuse and in no way okay. Sad, really. It instantly took me back to my childhood.

Sunday I went to Blake’s aunt and uncle’s house. We were there for far too long, and it was just slightly uncomfortable.

I’m happy, and excited about life right now.

March 23, 2016

My dad had surgery on Monday and it went well. They got the blockage down from 90% to 20% so that’s awesome.  I was incredibly worried, but it was nice to spend some time with my grandparents, Becky, Bonnie, and my sister.

Yesterday was a lot of running around finishing some last minute things for Humans of New York. I’m excited to finish this tomorrow evening. I kind of like how busy I’ve been though.

Last night at PC, I did a mindfulness exercise with my students. I had them share out two things they were thankful for with the team after some reflection time, and one of them said that she was thankful for this job and for being on this team. ALL THE WARM FUZZIES!

March 17, 2016

So my dad apparently had a stroke on Saturday. He didn’t go to the hospital because he’s my dad. He fell on Sunday, but told everyone that he tripped over Spike when in reality he had lost feeling in his leg. He is still having trouble gripping things. Come to find out, he has a blockage in his carotid. They aren’t sure if it is plaque or a clot, but they are working to figure it out.

I’ve had several breakdowns. I just don’t feel like I’m the greatest son, and I need to prioritize spending time with my parents. I think most people feel this way, though. Even if you are the greatest kid in the world, I think you might still feel this way.

I just want him to get better. I want my future kids to experience him, because he truly is a great role model.

March 15, 2016

This weekend was nice.

On Friday I started by working an event until 10:00 p.m. and it was really great to connect with the students. I learned some of their perspectives on things happening in the office, and I think it will be beneficial in moving forward. It also confirmed some things that I personally believed about the way that students view my supervisor.

After, I joined Blake and Tyler at Necto to see Detox perform. She was pretty good, but I feel like I’m just over the club scene. I prefer a bar where I can sit and have a conversation, or play some pool. Weird, right?

Saturday we headed to Lansing to hang out with Blake’s parents and to celebrate his birthday. We had the most delicious steak ever, but Blake’s dad wasn’t doing so hot. Apparently he had just had a root canal and it was still giving him grief. I hope he is feeling better by now. After dinner we just hung out, I played quite a bit of Guild Wars.

Sunday we came home and didn’t do a whole lot. It was nice because it was so rainy and gloomy, good nap weather.

March 9, 2016

BERNIE WON! I can’t believe it. I literally can’t believe he won the Michigan Primary. That’s awesome.

I had a hard time falling asleep last night. It finally hit me how shitty this past year has been. I think I try avoiding thinking about some things because there is no point in focusing on the negative, we should live in the present. I just started thinking about how hard everything must be for Blake. He lost his brother this year, he lost his grandpa this month, and he will likely lose another grandfather soon. I was just struggling with the issue of his brother last night, it sucks. It really does.


March 8, 2016

The past two days have been rather strange.

Yesterday I was incredibly busy and feeling connected to everyone within the office. I was feeling awesome. I learned things about Ky that I didn’t know, from previous employers.

Today is the total opposite. I woke up, went and voted #FeelTheBern, and upon leaving the polling location I drove off the curb and my car made a funky noise. Then we went to the gym, which was fine. I showered and then headed to my doctor’s appointment. I told my doctor that the prozac was working just fine, and brought up my sister’s recent diagnosis. She ordered a test but the lab was so busy so I didn’t go. As I checked out I realized I didn’t have my ID because I had left it at the polling location. Tyler picked it up because he’s awesome sauce.

I had lunch and then we had our Programs meeting. I swear everything I suggested was overlooked or there was something wrong with it. Totally fine, I don’t particularly care, but it was getting frustrating. Also, my supervisor consistently forgets about two of my students that are working on a larger event and I kind of snapped a little when she just said the one student’s name. It’s not fair to my students, especially since the larger budget comes from OUR program AND we were told we couldn’t do Laverne because she was too expensive.

Samantha had a rough phone call so I checked on her. I think she cried a little. I didn’t know what to do but told her I’m right across the hall.