November 20, 2017

I sit here laying on the couch with Ellie napping softly. She is such a little ham, I cannot believe I considered getting rid of her. I mean, I can.. I was overwhelmed at the time.

This entire month has been an absolute shit show at work.

The big vote came up and surprisingly the students passed it by secret ballot, and then the president reluctantly signed it (or will be). It was the longest meeting ever – it went until 3am. Disgusting.

Elections were 6 days later and there were a plethora of problems to deal with regarding that as well. Lots of last minute scrambling because both me and the Election Director have no idea what we are doing. They went live today and I found out one school was shorted by the registrar by 4000 people. We got it fixed and I had a back-up plan because of a loop-hole, but good gravy.

The bus thing starts tomorrow and I hadn’t heard any confirmation from the students so I sent an email last night at 11:30 p.m. and then had to go to the airport this morning to get the permits and what not. OVER IT.

Thank Jesus that the break is almost here because I’m headed straight towards a nervous breakdown. lol


November 9, 2017

Goodness. This week has been so extra.

Started the week by finding out that the super politically charged item was going to be on the agenda. Add to that a member of the org said some dumb shit around not having enough folks with privileged identities in the org. The group decided to create a committee to look into it further.

Elections are in a few weeks.

The bus thing is in a few weeks.

Cameron said “I love you.”

On the toilet.

He said “I love you” for the first time to someone.

While drunk on the toilet.

I don’t know if I do yet. If I can.

It’s bringing up bad thoughts in my head. Making me reflect on my pass relationships. I don’t know where I’m at. I don’t want to say there is pressure, but of course there is.

Denver was fun but not. It was dirty. Lots of homeless people. Cameron got so paranoid when we tried the edibles. I just couldn’t stop laughing. It was fun hiking in Boulder, though.

Ellie is one year old today! Yay!

November 1, 2017

Holy cow! I have not written in a long time. I feel like everything is going by so fast and I haven’t had a chance to sit down yet and think about what is happening in my life. I’m going to try to take pause.

Things are ramping up with the issue within CSG. The pres and VP are on opposing sides but it will likely pass, apparently. Not that the passing of such a measure will have any impact, but regardless.. it impacts the relationships of students within the organization. I’m grappling with how to support students that have a high sense of significance.

Halloween was fun! I had people over and everyone seemed to have a good time – some had too good of a time (Cameron and Sam). lol. Cam threw up on the way to the club, and Sam did the same upon arriving home. Cameron greeted Sam and Chris in his jock which I thought was hilarious, and we almost did group stuff.

OH! Also. Cameron said “I love you” while sitting on the toilet. He was drunk, but I was like.. eeek. I think I’m getting close with him, but I also recognize I’m still a little hung up on Tyler. Plus I’m not that great of a boyfriend.

I’ve been feeling like crud since Halloween, though. I’m not sure if my immune system is just down or what.

October 19, 2017

I have been learning hiragana to occupy some of my free time. I’ve also tried moving away from IG & Snapchat, just because I tend to spend a lot of time there for no reason. I wish I had self control to do it for like 5 minutes a day and that’s it, but I do not currently. This page leads to that page which leads to this page.. it’s never ending.

At work I should have probably volunteered for an event today, but I had a few other meetings and things on my calendar. Oh well.

Cameron and I are going to Denver the first weekend in November! I’m excited! It should be delightful and relaxing (hopefully). We still have not landed on whether or not we are renting a car, but we can figure that out later. 🙂

I think that life is funny and dumb. I want to get paid. Now.

October 16, 2017

I spent the weekend at Cameron’s. It was pretty chill. Friday night we didn’t do a whole lot – traffic was awful on the way there. Saturday we went to the gym, played video games, had his friends over and played board games. Sunday we didn’t do a whole lot – Kris and Zach came over at some point and we played games for a second, too. After that we went to see Kesha at the Fillmore. It was pretty cool 🙂

The concert was so fun and relaxing – it was so cute holding Cameron’s hand and kissing and grooving to the jams. xD


October 8, 2017

I didn’t do a whole lot this weekend which was nice.

Cameron and I went to Necto on Friday to see Trixie. We spent two hours in line to be up front and got some solid pictures.. well Cameron did. I got a video.

Saturday we didn’t do a whole lot. Breakfast with Anna, pokemon/smash, and gym. We tried to have cute boys over on Saturday but it didn’t pan out unfortunately. We had Matt and Steve over, though. It was fun and chill.

Today I didn’t do much. I went to Zach’s play, the gym, the gym again, and that’s about it. 🙂

October 3, 2017

I’m waiting for the meeting to start tonight. I’m excited to see how this one goes, hopefully smooth.

Things at work have been slightly hectic, but manageable. We got the program off the ground despite the website access being revoked and the previous webmaster not responding. We are having to do it by hand, but I’m hopeful that the students will have a pleasant experience.

I haven’t had many meetings with my supervisor still, but with everything going on around campus I totally understand. She has her hands full for sure.

My sister moved some of her stuff in yesterday. It’s official that we are living together and what not. I’m nervous about it but think overall it will be okay. It will be nice to have an Ellie-sitter. lol.

I was listening to this song on the way in today and it was just talking about how we only have this one life. Am I living it to the best of my ability? What does that look like anyhow? So different for each individual. Am I doing what I want or am I subscribing to what society wants.. or do I want what society wants me to want? Maybe I do, maybe I don’t.

Sometimes I still miss Tyler. I’m happy with Cameron, though. I don’t know that it’s fair to Cameron that I’m with him when I still am slightly hung up on my ex. I wonder if Blake feels that way or if he’s 100% over me.

October 1, 2017

Lots has happened over the past few days.

Thursday I hung out with Christopher. We were initially only going to go to Bubble Island and then that was it, but we ended up grabbing some wine and playing Super Smash as well. It was nice, got a bit more drunk than I had intended on. Matt came over which was nice. It was cool to just hang out with the two of them.

Friday was a short day at work. I came home and Cameron was already there. We messed around and then headed to West Virginia. It was a long drive and I was hungover which did not help anything. We got to the cabin around 10pm and it was not ideal.. no heat, and there were stinkbugs under the mattress. It was fine, though.

Saturday we woke up early. Cameron didn’t sleep well because the mattresses were so bad – like springs poking through and shit. We went to Ann’s house and visited with them. Zoey was a lot, per usual. My mom offered the hiking trip I wanted to go on with Cameron up to Zoey and Jeremy which was slightly upsetting. Catie ended up texting her for me and Zoey went garage saling instead. Thank goodness. After the hike to Long Point we went home and laid down. After the nap we went to Fayette Station which was cool, and Cameron liked it. We came back and had dinner with everyone to celebrate Jeremy’s birthday (today).

This morning we woke up early and were on the road by 9am. We didn’t get back until around 3:40, but that’s okay. It was a quick but fun trip.

September 21, 2017

It’s been a while since I checked in, I think. Lots has happened in the past week, so I’m going to break it down.

Monday I went to lunch with my office as my last hurrah. It was exciting to have my meal paid for and to spend time with them, although it wasn’t much of a celebration of my time there. I did, however, get an awesome picture of the Union and a card from the staff.

Tuesday was pretty chill, I didn’t do a whole lot for my last day in my old job. I had my first meeting with the students in the evening, and it was a fairly long meeting but enjoyable. I was introduced and the newspaper quoted me without me knowing they were doing so. Weird.

Wednesday was my first day in the office. It was a whirlwind with lots of information thrown at me plus learning how the students were handling / reacting to the campus climate issues. It’s a lot, but it energizes me to an extent.

Today was quite chill. I spent time with someone from assessment to talk about learning outcomes with the students. I also went with Ashley for coffee to thank her for being a recommendation. It was helpful and I appreciate her. I still need to set something up with Nick.

This weekend will fly by and next weekend we are going to Fayetteville.

September 13, 2017

Yesterday LBJ sent out an email to assembly announcing my new position. It’s becoming more real each day.

I feel scatter brained today, and I’m not sure why.

I don’t want to do anything work related.